i couldn't find my wings

as much as i hate it

as much as i hate talking about him, i just cant help it!! :( on june 7, we were supposed to celebrate our 1st anniversary. but yeah, people who already broke up dont celebrate anniversaries. CRAP!

do it quickly…

I’ve just had a few beers with my highschool friends. Kristine’s ranting about her boyfriend… or ex-boyfriend. Even she doesn’t know the real status of their relationship. Clod and Jericho kept on telling her that the guy doesn’t love her anymore because if he does, he would not let Kristine feel this way. I, myself is convinced that he doesnt love my friend anymore. C’mon, if he still do, why the hell is he hurting Kristine this much. So the only advice I gave her is to ask for closure.

CLOSURE. It doesn’t really end the hurting but at least you know what’s the real score. It’s the cue that you should start to move on. It shows that whatever you’ve had has ended so you should stop hoping for a second chance.

…I think that’s what I need. After my ex boyfriend and I exchanged mean words, I still love him. We’ve talked already and he said he still loves me. Whenever he says it, I can feel the truth in his words. But when he doesn’t say it, I feel like I’ve been dumped again. Like last night, we were supposed to talk but he chose beer or whatever he is drinking over me. He enjoys his friends’ company more. I asked him if he still loves me and he said “I dont know.” and I was like, “Hey! You just told me you love me the other day.” So yeah, perhaps, he isn’t really sure of what he feels for me. I want to ask for a closure but I am afraid he might give it and yet, I know to myself that it’s really what I need.

Okay, enough said. My head aches like a mother. I should go now! Bye!

Self-Proclaimed Drama Queen

This is now my official drama outlet. So yes, everything you read here will be about my life’s drama and complications. So if you hate such things, get your ass off here. Haha.

I have no dramatic thing to say right now, though. So yeah, bye for now!

a heartbreak kills. only slower than a gunshot

pss. the title, i just thought of that. my hypothalamus feels that way, seriously.

i have a large dose of stupidity in my system. whenever he tells me he loves me, i say it back. after all he has done and all he has said, i still love him with all the madness in my soul. call me insane, i’ll hug you until your eye pops.

“Sometimes you need to forget about people from your past. Because of ONE simple reason: they just dont belong in your future.”

One word: Boloney !!

Like a hard candy with the surprise center

My first tumblr post. Oh. Yay! Haha. My official blog is down at the moment so I decided to try out new stuffs like this one. Hahaha. I’ve seen lots of tumblr blogs and being the envious me, here I am now. Hahaha. So okay. I dont want to fill this blog with lots of HAHAs so let me be a little serious for awhile. Here goes…

I am upset, really. I’ve been feeling sad ever since I can remember. I feel like I’m falling off the wagon. I still miss him and I still want to be with him but that’s kinda impossible right now. I haven’t heard from him since last week. I miss him, I really really do. I badly want to talk to him. I want to call him but I am scared that he might not like to talk to me and just hang up. I am a chicken but can you blame me? I know him pretty well. If he doesnt want to talk, he really wouldn’t talk. Ugh. Sorry for being little miss dramaqueen again. I just have to get it off my chest. It’s pretty heavy already and I hate it.

* no more melodrama below the line. *

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Wapaaak! Hahaha. So yeah, I miss my site. I hope it’ll be fixed soon. :) Btw, who’s on twitter? Give my page a visit. http://twitter.com/lovetricia And oh, last question, are you in love with David Archuleta? WELL I AM! Haha.

Have to go! Bye! Love you!

tricia